I wish I could hold you in my arms. Right now. Just hold you tight. And never let go. I never want to take you for granted. I want to make you feel appreciated. And loved. Every day. Whether I’m 10 hours away. Or walking beside you. I just want you. I want to make you smile constantly. I love knowing I can make you laugh. Especially when you tell me I amuse you. Makes me smile. I just want to be there with you. To share the laughs. The smiles. The good times. The memories. So that when I’m away from you. I can look back on them. And know that you’re always with me. And me with you.
Posted 9 hours ago
Missing her.
I’ve been sick a lot lately. First right after I got home from South Carolina. And now I’ve been sick the past couple of days. I hate it. The feeling causes me to think about how much I miss her. How I miss getting to hug her. Getting to hear her voice in person rather than through Skype. Being able to hold her hand. Say whatever comes to mind. To kiss her. As much as I want. Makes me want to be with her again so badly. So that she can take care of me. And so that I can take care of her when she doesn’t feel well. Which she hasn’t either. I’m so appreciative for everything. When I think of how blessed we are to know each other. To have found each other, while we were ten hours apart. It’s mind boggling. I can’t help but tell God “thank you”. I don’t know how I got so blessed to have found such a similar person to who I am. Our characteristic are identical in many ways. The telepathy we constantly have. It makes me smile.
Today I was out of it at work. And like. I just felt so down. So tired. Just wishing I could close my eyes and then wake up in South Carolina. But I know I can’t. Every day is taking so long. It hasn’t even been to weeks since I left. And it feels like it’s been forever. My Dad is retiring from the Navy on Friday. It’s weird. The very thing that got me where I am now. Over just like that. I know that it’s one step closer to knowin where we’re going to end up. My Dad finding a job. Hopefully somewhere in the Carolinas. I just keep the hope that we will be really close. But I know I can’t expect anything. Because my hopes would get thrown down. I’m so used to living far away from friends. That I know the odds are against us. But I know God has a path for me. And if we’re supposed to end up in South Carolina. That’s where it’ll be.
I just really feel out of it right now. Can’t put all of my thoughts into one organized post. They’re all jumbled. Every day is hard. To see her on my computer. And just want so badly to be with her. To feel her warmth. I miss her so much. I miss her smile. Her laughs. Her tendencies. Her weirdness. Our connections together. I’m so thankful for her. The way she cares about me. And constantly makes me feel good. About myself. About how I am bettering myself because of her. Discovering new music through her. Wanting to read again. Being nicer to my family like they deserve. She just makes me feel better about myself and the person I’m becoming. I am learning constantly.
It’s so hard not knowing when I’ll get to see her next. When I’ll be able to hold her tight in my arms. Not knowing is worse because it could be a while. And I don’t want it to go to August when we plan on going to Universal. I want it to be in June. If anything July. I just hope it’s soon. It’s getting late. And I need more sleep. Yay for day number 5 of this work stretch tomorrow.
Posted 1 day ago
I watched this movie with Caitlin on my last night with her. I really enjoyed it. Loved the music and the story. I’m starting to like Tim Burton’s stuff a lot more lately thanks to her. Hoping to see Frankenweenie in theaters when i comes out in the fall. Anyways. I love this song. I love the piano and it is played so beautifully in this song. I remember Caitlin sending me this song after we started talking. Didn’t know I would grow to like it so much.
Posted 4 days ago
I’ve found myself being more thankful for Harry Potter as of late. For everything it has done for fans. It’s gave so many people so much feeling. The bonds between characters. Bonds of fans and the characters. Fans and the actors. Hogwarts. Magic. Wizardry. Witchcraft. Every little connection. The ability to compare books to movies. Get angry at non similarities. At little things that could have been done differently. To be so insterested in the story and what is going to happen next. Being upset at the thought of characters dying. The lessons that are taught. Of friendship. Love. Keeping calm in the darkest of times. Sticking together no matter what. I remember being so affected by the death of Dumbledore when I watched all of the movies back when I really got into the series. Watching Half-Blood Prince again and seeing how significant of a loss it was. I was outside actually feeling as if it was real. It was. It always has been. In our hearts. The is a deleted scene in the movie that really got me. Actually two. The first being Dumbledore and Harry leaving the cave and Harry is telling him they will be back to Hogwarts soon and he would be okay. Dumbledore says “I’m not worried Harry, I’m with you.” Dumbledore. Quite possibly the greatest wizard ever says this to Harry. It shows just how much they both meant to each other. Pretty ticked that it didn’t make it to the final cut of the movie. It’s only a few seconds as it is. And the second being right after with the song In Noctem playing. Everyone in the scene looks at the sky at one point. It’s like they know something is about to happen. Something big. And we know aswell. It just makes me think. How the loss of Dumbledore affected Harry. Hagrid. The school in general.
Caitlin has taught me a lot that I hadn’t known before because I haven’t read the books as she has. So many little details. And knowing how much Harry Potter influenced her life makes it more significant to me. She wouldn’t be who she is without it. I’m just so thankful. Harry Potter will never leave my heart and will always hold an important spot in my life. I really cannot wait to go to Universal Studios with her. Hopefully sometime this summer. I want to see the happiness in her eyes and in her smile. To finally make it to Hogwarts and experience as if I was Harry Potter. I’m so ready.
For a little while now I have been on a journey to find all of the Harry Potter books at Goodwill to read. There is so much more detail in them than in the movies. The stories are deeper. The background. Each and every thin is explained. Any wonder or question that I have had, answered. So thanks to Caitlin and her love for reading she has got me wanting to read again. Before her I didn’t have any books. Now my collection is growing all the time. I plan on starting The Sorcerer’s Stone today. I’m so ready to start this journey for the first time.
Posted 6 days ago
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